This is a Cry for Help // Notebook Saga

These 5.5x8.5" recycled-material notebooks have been my staple for morning writing for about a year now. A couple of months ago, the stock of the notebooks at Raw Materials began to dwindle. James, one of the co-shop owners, looked up the notebooks on the distributor's website and they were not available. I didn't think too much of it even though a small voice inside me was already beginning to feel the cold grasp of despair that my beloved notebooks would be discontinued. I began visiting every other week or so, asking James if anything had changed. Nothing had. Except that the stock of notebooks disappeared completely. I bought the last three or four that they had.

I went to the Daler-Rowney website to check out the situation, to find that indeed, they no longer even listed the notebooks. It was as if they never even existed. Stricken, I called the company and left a message about my predicament. I probably sounded half-crazed to whoever listened to it. I haven't gotten a call back. 

And now, alas, I am in the final pages of my last notebook. Just a few more days and it will be over. I'll have to do an online order if I don't find a seller in town that still has these notebooks in stock. Ideally, I'd get some kind of deal and be able to order them in bulk, but considering how desperately I want to acquire them and since they're in limited supply, I should probably resign myself to paying a premium. 

And then, what will I do once those notebooks run out, too? What will I do? 

Well, I'll adapt, of course. Readjust when I must. But I'm trying to put that off for as long as possible. I'm being melodramatic, I know, I know. But these notebooks... they're so beautiful. If you see them anywhere in Los Angeles, let me know. 

Thanks.

WHY, DALER-ROWNEY, WHY???